The rotating world

Recently, someone told me she was getting depressed over her
relationship. Though from the outside, she seem happily married,
contented and joyful. Took her some courage to let others know all
those are just what was displayed for others to see. It's tough being
in a relationship and its even tougher keeping it up. It would burn
through most of your energy when your other half is just...simply not
as compatible as you have once thought.

I suppose all relationships start off with some spark and excitement,
but when the flame dies out...what happens? We can try to salvage
whatever there is and hope it would at least rekindle some of the old
desires...but when all else fails...what is there to do? Should we
continue to stay on and pretend we are OK, or should we call it short?
It's a tough decision...most people would just ignore and hope they
will just get use to the feeling and everything else would be fine by
then. Some would choose to take matters up and either call for it or
get some things done. Those that call it short would be labelled as
selfish, irresponsible, inconsiderate...and in today's society...i
guess many many more names will be thrown at you. And all the faults
and wrongs in this world would lay on the one that took the first
move. Why? Simply because you made the first move. Most of us would
not want to go through such decision and would just choose to let it
stay...hoping that on one of those fine days...you will still get some
coincidental spark...and on those days that not, you just simply get
through life on a flat-line scale. Nothing out of the norm should come
up and agitate you, which would in turn remind you of your current
ignorant state. What could be worse? Such feeling once kicked in,
would probably stay a couple more days till you can be fully ignorant
again. Rinse & repeat. And that's the entire lifetime for most of the
people. My take is simple...Live for yourself, dont waste your entire
lifetime living what you think others might have want you to.

Another place, another time

This morning, I shifted into my 4th room in my 3years over stay in this small island. This time around, i picked a place further from everything else. My criterias for a place does not stick to what it used to be anymore. I'm looking for a quieter place more than convenience now. I guess I'm getting really tired from the all the human traffic and the congestions. I need a breather...and hopefully this new place would be able to give some.

All in all, this place isn't anything fancy. Compared to my old room this one is alot lackluster...in many ways, the bed is just a simple thin alluminium framed setup, the matress is just a floppy foam. Even the curtains are clearly home-sewn with a cheap, glossy cloth...at least 3 times thinner than my both towel.

Though it's a lil more spacious...and more importantly, the people...for now, are alot nicer. In time, all those lil nice-to-haves...though might contribute to my overall feeling for this place...but will never break anything compared to things my ex weirdo landlord did.

So its done

My break has been almost used up now. To think just a week ago, i was still babbling about how to spend my time off. I guess time which have not been put into good use will expire anyhow. Though I've managed to get a few things done. Suprisingly withdrawing $ from our provident fund wasn't as tedious as i thought it might be. It's just the wait. For my case, at least it is still bearable. Slightly more than a week from the filling up of forms to going to the bank, wait for the bank to prepare the statement and submit it to the board. Now...i'll have to wait for another 10days or so for my cheque to arrive. Then i'll be a lil richer.

My days for the past one week has been quite long, waking up early in the morning...dozing off only close to dawn. Being at home is a good feeling. Breakfast, lunch and dinner without worries. It's a bliss. Having to do whatever and go wherever the heart pleases. I just wish the week would be longer.

Ohhh...and I hit 80 just this morning on WoW. And that mark's the end of all the tough leveling work. I wouldn't even wanna think on what's gonna happen next. *shivers*

Grats once again to the resto druid!

And so it begins!

Ms Sotong's wedding dinner was a blast last nite...it was like a mass gathering for all the Mandiri people. Was fun indeed having to see those old familiar faces that i once knew. Though the service was pretty bad, the food was pretty alright...the only annoyance was the 80 years old lady and her big birthday bash next door...so much for sharing venues...and MC...it was pretty messy but i guess we have all learnt to ignore the mc entirely after a few rounds of confusion. Have to remember not to hold any party when the venue is co-shared, especially if they dont have separate sound system.

Though i am trying very hard not to count, i cant help but to think my 2 weeks break will be over sooner than i thought. Today's my first 'official' day off and i have at another 14days ahead.

Traffic sucks back home. I have been out almost half a day running errands and all, i came back grumpy, cursing at the weather and at the car's air conditioning.
Wasn't pleasent day but at least i managed to get some stuff done.

Next, i gotta wait for a week for my documents to be ready by the bank. In between Now and Then...I still have not figure out what else i can do with my break apart from...well, if i can think of something better to do...i'd pass on WoW any given day. All I need now...is just some knocking on these lazy bones and perhaps a small dose of inspiration....

As the day draws near

Everything's happening so fast, i can hardly contain my excitement.
I'm finally moving out from this place after almost 1.5 years. On & off i have put up with my current landlord's weird behaviour and lack of respect on other's privacy. I'm finally seeing the end of things...at least...from him. I've got a new place somewhere further east and I'm really looking forward to a new start. A world where i can only just...imagine. And whatever image that i have in my head right now, is a pretty good one...one which i'm very much looking forward to.

That aside, I'm finally goin off for my long awaited break. TWO DAMN GOOD WEEKS of pure NOTHINGNESS! I can sleep as much as I want, eat whatever my heart desires or do whatever i like, whenever i feel like it for a full two weeks! Life's a bliss. And when it's time for me to come back and face with reality, at least i still have that image in my mind that i'm looking forward to. So its from now until whenever...there wasn't any single grey cloud in the distance! yahhhoooooooooooo!

The Beckoning

I didn't do it on purpose...so happen that i was there at the shop...and they had a copy right on the shelf...so i bought it. Just as simple as that. I ain't no addict.

Of Hate and Love

My passion for this game is like a life's journey. After hitting 70 on my latest toon, I've been spending my nights trying to get some reps with the many factions in the game. A tiring process which I've been through like twice now. And i'm still attempting it for a third. With WOTLK coming to stores tomorrow, when will redemption come...?

I was having dinner with someone earlier after work. Talking away casually and laughing at some stupid jokes...it was truly something enjoyable. Sometimes I think I can be pretty self-centered. I dont pay too much attention on what others might told me during a course of conversation. Perhaps, I have been told many things before...but this thing...that was coveyed over dinner just now, shouldnt be something which I should have played a deaf ear at. At least...not literally.

The friend has been having hearing problem since years before we knew each other and it was pretty certain that, a remark has been made to me before this. To my memory, I failed to register something as important as that. And I have been repeatedly annoyed by his lack of attention when I used to call him from his back. Usually he only listens to his ipod with the left earphone plugged in. So I naturally assumed the ignorance is an attempt to agitate me. Though I felt rather sorry and guilty over my lack of understanding to a friend, I cant help but to visualize how it is like being in those shoes. For years, I have taken for granted my life and what I'm capable of doing...I've never considered myself as...tampered. I can never understand how it's like growing up that way. To think of that...reminds me of someone from long ago...someone...i once knew, someone close and dear. I wish I could have done something for him back then...