Seasonal Rain

I have almost...forgotten that I have this blog to maintain. Just realized how forgetful I am getting these days. Perhaps I'm already growing old.

The trip back home last week was a fun one. The bus was very comfortable. Its almost as good as Business Class on your regular airlines, only this one...it takes 5 and half hours to reach KL instead of 1 hour. And...not to mention the occasional, goin up and down for immigration checks and a resting stop.

On my way back last Sunday, I had a tummy ache. I was trying to hold back and was pouring cold sweat already, but the bus has yet some distance to cover before we reach our destination. So I had to dare myself and make a request to the driver to stop after almost 20minutes of endurement. He said we are almost at the one stop we have to make before our arrival. Can I hold for another few kilometers? I took a gulp of cold air in and held it there. Nod. And walked back to my seat. There, I was straining very hard deep down below for another 10mins or so before I rush off into the emergency room once the bus has stopped. So much for having a good experience with bus.

The season's changing lately. The sky would just turn dark and pour heavily without warning and then after an hour or so, turned bright again as if nothing has happend. I wonder why the weather can change so drastically now. Or has it always been like this before, just that I'm too ignorant to realise?

An ex colleague has been in Singapore for a few days now. I met him for lunch earlier on. We talked about the old times, though we were not that close back in Jakarta...at least he still make an effort to call me out and do lunch, which I'm kinda glad. Friends don't come easy. It takes two; plus alot of effort to foster and to maintain.

Going Home...Again

Hasn't been able to write much or in the mood to write at all. I guess...it's beginning to fade, something which I have anticipated since the very early of my creation of this blog. Or perhaps, its just my mood being mingled with.

I've been sitting in office for the past 2 days...not doin much. There wasn't any work for me. I guess playing a 'support' role is sometimes tiring. Sitting here and doing nothing is actually far more worse than at least having something to do. I've been spotted staring blanking at empty space for at least twice now, other times I think I unintentionally did that too. Didn't get enough of good rest lately.

I'm heading home tonight. My bus leaves Golden Mile at 7:30pm. My first bus trip home...hmmm hope its fun :) Being close to home is good.

Turning on a new 'live'

Recently, there has been quite a lot of changes when I get back to Singapore. I had to find my own place to stay now. And though I know from the very beginning that this day would come, somehow...it is still not so easy to adept or even accept. I guess I cant help but to feel a lil depressed and lost. Lucky for me, a friend had a place to rent out, so I jump on the chance. Though I'm now settled in the new place, it's somehow...different...the feeling i'm getting is still a lil awkward and...hmmm...perhaps this is the first time ever i'm moving out on my own...renting a place with a friend. The last time when I was in Jakarta, things were different. I dont get this sort of feeling. I hope it'll pass soon.

I have to work from 11 to 8 now. Sort of trying to support my european colleagues over what I've been doing for the past 3 months there. Sighs...why do i get so easily depressed lately? Hmm...I need a break I guess. Somehow, I think I'm losing myself.

It was raining almost the whole of today, my day and mind are both clouded. Grey and gloomy. As I walked to the mall opposite where I'm staying now...while waiting for the lights to change...I cant help but to think...Everyday seems to be a routine that I live out just for the sake getting through it. I don't know what I'm feeling or want in life anymore. At least for now, I don't. Perhaps I'm saying all these because I'm not in the right mood...if that's the case...I would be glad, for it will usually be gone sooner than I think, or if I'm wrong...I would be stuck with this emotional self of mine for quite some time...Hopefully tomorrow when I wake up, I'll feel different.

Home and Back

Ahhh...can never get too long a holiday. One week seems just too short. I barely have enough time to catch all my friends for a meetup. And some are even harder to get in touch with than I thought. I guess when we get older, friends tend to get lesser. Sighs...one of those small lil regrets in life *again*.

Just got back to Singapore on Monday. Was busy and tired since then. Not quite in the mood to update this blog. Did once early, but the session has timed-out...and I lost my post again...for the fifth of sixth time already...and its really frustrating. Can never write the same thing again.

Life in Asia is bliss. When I was back in Malaysia last week, I took the commuter to almost all my outings if possible. Just to look at the sky, the trees and the people...I know its silly, but somehow it felt good. I guess I have really missed home. When I went down for lunch on Monday, ahh....another bliss...the varieties. No more pasta-of-the-day or will-make-do-for-now chinese food for lunch. I guess I'm just another typical Asian :)