I got up early this morning, earlier than usual. A point I have made since two weeks ago. I've asked my boss to let me off at 5. Fact being, I need to rush back to the east, grab a quick shower if I can and hail a cab to the airport with my 20kg check in quota.
I managed to pack everything into m's 60litre tatonka, my topman weekender and this round I have two laptops to carry home. A black Sony vaio which I've bought on Monday after two weeks of pondering on a MacBook air, and my old Toshiba which I plan to let it retire in my humble abode. Perhaps it could enjoy an easier life keeping my parents company.
The mood is slowly creeping in. Yayyyy...!
Friday, August 12, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
The long waited plan
Three days. In just 3 days, I'm leaving for my 3 weeks break. Though I've had this planned since last year, but now that it's finally here...I'm not as excited as I was back then. Strange. Maybe the long wait has worn me out.
I'm never good with plan, never like the feeling of waiting for something to happen in the future...life's too short. Why wait when you can do it now...?
Was walking out of office with PC, she is all dressed up again. When i asked her of her plans, she raised her eyebrow, simply replied 'you should know'. And indeed i know. Countless tries later and she is still trying. I admire her determination. May she get lucky this time.
It's 810pm, I'm still in the train. Feeling rather lethargic. Thinking of my dinner options. Can this go on forever...?
Looking forward to the arrival of mood...
I'm never good with plan, never like the feeling of waiting for something to happen in the future...life's too short. Why wait when you can do it now...?
Was walking out of office with PC, she is all dressed up again. When i asked her of her plans, she raised her eyebrow, simply replied 'you should know'. And indeed i know. Countless tries later and she is still trying. I admire her determination. May she get lucky this time.
It's 810pm, I'm still in the train. Feeling rather lethargic. Thinking of my dinner options. Can this go on forever...?
Looking forward to the arrival of mood...
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Thinking cloud
Next time when you pause, just a short halt while waiting for a train or watching the crowd pass by at the lights...think of one moment in life that you were happy. Can you think of something immediately? Or do you have to scan the imaginary cloud above hoping to find a picture that once made you laugh or smile genuinely. It's funny how easy we forget.
It's been many pauses since I boarded this train home, and I'm still scanning.
P/S: all I can think of is the uncle with bad breath beside me :s I hope he gets off soon...
It's been many pauses since I boarded this train home, and I'm still scanning.
P/S: all I can think of is the uncle with bad breath beside me :s I hope he gets off soon...
Sunday, June 05, 2011
Once in this lifetime
Friends don't come easy in life. Old friends are even harder to keep in your life. I'm grateful that every now and then I get to know someone new. And even more grateful to know that I have friends that I have manage to keep for so many years and yet our bonds remain strong. Not an east task, but one that is very much fulfilling to a single soul.
This weekend though most of us were pretty tired with our routine life, we had made a promise to an old friend that we will throw everything aside and make a trip to Miri to attend her life's biggest event. It's been a long while since we have spent so much time together. How much life has changed for most of us and watching one of our dear friend walking down the aisle, smiling broadly with tears in her eyes, made me feel that we have come a long way to witness this very moment, to feel it. I'm most happy for her new found life.
Though I'm very tired after all those rushes, but this weekend was the best I have spent for a very long time.
This weekend though most of us were pretty tired with our routine life, we had made a promise to an old friend that we will throw everything aside and make a trip to Miri to attend her life's biggest event. It's been a long while since we have spent so much time together. How much life has changed for most of us and watching one of our dear friend walking down the aisle, smiling broadly with tears in her eyes, made me feel that we have come a long way to witness this very moment, to feel it. I'm most happy for her new found life.
Though I'm very tired after all those rushes, but this weekend was the best I have spent for a very long time.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Out of the water
I haven't been able to sleep well or I would wake up at 3am or so for no reason and would not be able to fall asleep again till at least an hour later. It's tiring and frustrating at the same time. My mind will be filled with images of the next day. What will people think or say, how should I react, what should I do...etc.
I realize now, getting out of comfort zone is not an easy emotional moment. And the moment itself, will probably take weeks or even months.
At least now I see myself getting dragged here and there. The day in office seem to whizz thru. Something which I feel rather positive about...
I'm spending lesser time surfing in the toilet. Actually I haven't been able to do it at all.
My morning routine of reading google news for an hour; does not exist anymore.
...and when I leave office in the evening my phone is still at least 70% full. Unlike previously i would almost run dry or blinking at red.
Next Monday, I'm officially moving over and taking over the rein.
I realize now, getting out of comfort zone is not an easy emotional moment. And the moment itself, will probably take weeks or even months.
At least now I see myself getting dragged here and there. The day in office seem to whizz thru. Something which I feel rather positive about...
I'm spending lesser time surfing in the toilet. Actually I haven't been able to do it at all.
My morning routine of reading google news for an hour; does not exist anymore.
...and when I leave office in the evening my phone is still at least 70% full. Unlike previously i would almost run dry or blinking at red.
Next Monday, I'm officially moving over and taking over the rein.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Perhaps it's a life changing moment
Breathe in, close your eyes and take a big step out of your comfort zone.
I was offered a chance to replace someone who is leaving the company. Someone who is more senior. Although it's not gonna be my same old trade skill. It's gonna be an entirely new battleground. And frankly I'm not too sure if I'd be able to cope. But I guess it's time, given the chance; it's probably time to take another step. A year later or so, I may be able to look back at today and ...like Edith Piaf would say, 'je ne regrette rien'.
I was offered a chance to replace someone who is leaving the company. Someone who is more senior. Although it's not gonna be my same old trade skill. It's gonna be an entirely new battleground. And frankly I'm not too sure if I'd be able to cope. But I guess it's time, given the chance; it's probably time to take another step. A year later or so, I may be able to look back at today and ...like Edith Piaf would say, 'je ne regrette rien'.
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
The thing we love
It's easy when you see a couple getting married. All happy and jolly. And most of us would think thats a closing of a chapter. And we stop looking at them for a while, leave them to do what they do in their new found life. Starting a new family, building a house, planning for the first kid. But sometimes when you stop looking, it doesn't mean the happiness and jolliness will keep itself going till they achieve all that and perhaps more. Sometimes, before all that can even begin things may immediately start falling apart. Is it the culture of modern society that we rush into everything, afraid that if we don't do it we probably won't be able or have any chance to do it anymore?
Last afternoon, I was at Mcdonald's having lunch, saw an old japanese couple queuing for ice-cream outside. The old man got a choco top and the old lady got a lime swirl. They came into the restaurant quite excitedly and got a themselves a seat just diagonal from me. Taking turns holding the two cones, snapping pictures for one another. And when they finish to about half, they traded with each other. Such is not a picture you will see everyday. I can't help but to wonder, how many couples will get to this stage? And if you are lucky to get there, would it mean that you've already had a great love life? :)
Last afternoon, I was at Mcdonald's having lunch, saw an old japanese couple queuing for ice-cream outside. The old man got a choco top and the old lady got a lime swirl. They came into the restaurant quite excitedly and got a themselves a seat just diagonal from me. Taking turns holding the two cones, snapping pictures for one another. And when they finish to about half, they traded with each other. Such is not a picture you will see everyday. I can't help but to wonder, how many couples will get to this stage? And if you are lucky to get there, would it mean that you've already had a great love life? :)
Tuesday, May 03, 2011
Twice as good
At times I would laugh at myself. What was I thinking, about a month ago I got into a bookstore(just because I saw some familiar faces coming my way and I wanted to avoid them), then I bought a book from the bestseller display. I briefly read the back and thought it's pretty interesting.
A month and half later, I finally took it out from the plastic bag. And when i start reading at the back of the book again in the train, it suddenly seem all so familiar. Flipping through a few chapters i was assured i have had this one before, only from a different publisher. Thus, different cover design. I have a feeling of being cheated, by myself.
Though it was a good book, but I don't intend to do it twice just yet. Now I will have to give this away to prevent myself from 'remembering' the silly mistake I've committed...
A month and half later, I finally took it out from the plastic bag. And when i start reading at the back of the book again in the train, it suddenly seem all so familiar. Flipping through a few chapters i was assured i have had this one before, only from a different publisher. Thus, different cover design. I have a feeling of being cheated, by myself.
Though it was a good book, but I don't intend to do it twice just yet. Now I will have to give this away to prevent myself from 'remembering' the silly mistake I've committed...
Saturday, April 23, 2011
i heart coffee after midnite! j'adore le cafe apres minuit!
Now that my french has officially ended. I seem to have the urge to get more acquianted with it than ever before. Strange, but i'm beginning to see and read things and sometimes think of things in french. Why didn't it happen or do i feel such strong interest previously...and why now that i have completed E6 and have no intention to continue further for any time near future (or as far as i can tell now). Well, i guess its best i try to write when i can...
Il est une heure et demi. Apres minuit, apres mon anniversaire aussi. J'ai trent trois ans maintenant.
Je suis assise dans le cafe de Coffee Bean a Genting Highlands. Je ne peux pas dormir. J'ai achete une tasse de cafe et j'apportes mon l'ordinateur mobile. Il y a internet libre. Je ne peux pas ecrit en francaise plus, parce que je suis tres fatigue. Je pratiquerai un peu quand j'ai le temps.
Il est une heure et demi. Apres minuit, apres mon anniversaire aussi. J'ai trent trois ans maintenant.
Je suis assise dans le cafe de Coffee Bean a Genting Highlands. Je ne peux pas dormir. J'ai achete une tasse de cafe et j'apportes mon l'ordinateur mobile. Il y a internet libre. Je ne peux pas ecrit en francaise plus, parce que je suis tres fatigue. Je pratiquerai un peu quand j'ai le temps.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Thirty three
On this day of my thirty third anniversary, I got up at 7, skipped my shower, had instant noodle with luncheon meat and gone out of the house by 815am.
Sitting in a tour bus, northbound to the city above the clouds for a two-nights' stay. A short break with my family. One which I felt has been long due but feels just appropriate.
My parents have booked two rooms. One of which I get to stay by myself. I haven't been able to show my appreciation much. Strange. While I'm always able to express myself better with friends, I'm mostly without much things to say with my parents.
The slow climb; I'm getting rather impatient to get off this vehicle. The mute uncle beside me has been shifting in his seat since the start of the journey, perhaps as anxious to get off as well. We just got past the gantry at the foot of the hill. With about 30 people this will be an even slower ascend. Most in their later years, I think half of the bus will probably return this same evening via the same bus. A "one day tour" the tour guide says. These people have a pretty similar look on their face. That gleam in their eyes. $$. It's unmistakable.
I'm starting to feel a lil dizzy.
I should stop writing now...
Sitting in a tour bus, northbound to the city above the clouds for a two-nights' stay. A short break with my family. One which I felt has been long due but feels just appropriate.
My parents have booked two rooms. One of which I get to stay by myself. I haven't been able to show my appreciation much. Strange. While I'm always able to express myself better with friends, I'm mostly without much things to say with my parents.
The slow climb; I'm getting rather impatient to get off this vehicle. The mute uncle beside me has been shifting in his seat since the start of the journey, perhaps as anxious to get off as well. We just got past the gantry at the foot of the hill. With about 30 people this will be an even slower ascend. Most in their later years, I think half of the bus will probably return this same evening via the same bus. A "one day tour" the tour guide says. These people have a pretty similar look on their face. That gleam in their eyes. $$. It's unmistakable.
I'm starting to feel a lil dizzy.
I should stop writing now...
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
J'ai completé mon élémentaire!
Le 19 avril 2011, il y avait mon dernier class en francaise.
J'ai completé l'élémentaire six!!!
Il a été une année depuis que j'ai commencé. Fatigué mais bien. Je peux un pause. Je ne vais pas continuer maintenant.
J'espère que un jour je peux parler sans problème. Peut-être je pourrai participer a la class phonics après le pause.
Maintenant, je me libre tous les mardis! C'est une bonne vie!
J'ai completé l'élémentaire six!!!
Il a été une année depuis que j'ai commencé. Fatigué mais bien. Je peux un pause. Je ne vais pas continuer maintenant.
J'espère que un jour je peux parler sans problème. Peut-être je pourrai participer a la class phonics après le pause.
Maintenant, je me libre tous les mardis! C'est une bonne vie!
Friday, April 15, 2011
The world is a stage
Friday. Gone with the usual dress down day. It is a jolly good Friday where everything in office is squeaky clean. The silvers have been polished. The red carpet rolled out and the best coffee will be simmering in the pot. Most importantly, everyone will suddenly forget about lateness is. Will be in their best ironed shirts/dresses, some may even put on a tie or suit. All that just to put up a show for one person's brief visit, who I believe never requested anything of such and who most likely will not have chance to lay an eye on any of us who sits in a row. I can't help but wonder if there comes a day when I'm a somebody, would I be doing such act and rally my people to run this parade with me? All the floor will be gathering to put on a show, the act better impress the who has no boss.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
When enough is enough
It's been four days since the showdown. I have so far vented pretty much of my anger and frustration towards this friend. In order to make him realize I mean what I said this time, I won't be giving in anytime soon. Sometimes I wonder if he'll ever learn not to take all things for granted, although I have been quite tolerant all this while but I won't be doing it forever, especially when my friendship has always been chosen as the one to be abused, just merely because i can 'afford'. I'm getting tired and I need a break from all this.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
I'm on a Roller
From a supposedly relaxing weekend to a rush and flew past by Sunday. Life is truly a roller coaster.
Spending my Sunday morning having breakfast, guiding XR thru her first acc opening and getting started with her life here has been quite fulfilling. It's nice to witness the beginning of one's big decision in life. A decision that will change their course of life forever.
The rain has started again, I'm still on a my way back. Guess the tennis won't be on with or without me this evening. I just can't wait to get home, have a nice warm shower, slip into my comfortable tee and shorts and nap till it's dinner time. It would still be a great Sunday.
Spending my Sunday morning having breakfast, guiding XR thru her first acc opening and getting started with her life here has been quite fulfilling. It's nice to witness the beginning of one's big decision in life. A decision that will change their course of life forever.
The rain has started again, I'm still on a my way back. Guess the tennis won't be on with or without me this evening. I just can't wait to get home, have a nice warm shower, slip into my comfortable tee and shorts and nap till it's dinner time. It would still be a great Sunday.
Thursday, April 07, 2011
More red
The nose bleed seems to be more frequent now. Had one just when I laid down to bed last nite. And this morning when I was spreading my expired-by-one-day bread, I saw a drip on the floor. Then the rest came and I had to tilt my head for a few good minutes to stop the flow. Somehow I am rather afraid to find out if it's more than just heatiness.
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Twice in a week
Last Sunday, D hopped back into my life for a brief appearance. Then hopped out again in a very quick move. Short, almost insignificant but somewhat sweet. Sometimes long encounters may not necessary be good but rather short ones make things seems much simpler & nice.
Tonight I'm heading to the airport. Aunt is coming over with cous sis. It's gonna be a family affair at the airport. I'm still very tired after the break-from-norm leave yesterday.
The gum's still a lil swollen and bleeding some. Its been 4 days or so now. Sometimes I wonder if my health problems will ever cease.
Tonight I'm heading to the airport. Aunt is coming over with cous sis. It's gonna be a family affair at the airport. I'm still very tired after the break-from-norm leave yesterday.
The gum's still a lil swollen and bleeding some. Its been 4 days or so now. Sometimes I wonder if my health problems will ever cease.
Location:Airport Blvd,Singapore,Singapore
Monday, March 07, 2011
Ohm again
Another weekend has come and gone. Last Saturday I finally got myself to register for yoga. It's been close to 3 years. And since I've stopped my practice entirely, I have at least gained 10kgs and turned into a hideous pumpkin-shaped monster. And which is the reason i've been avoiding taking pictures and looking at myself naked in the mirror. This self ignorance shall not go on further...I guess it's finally time to cut the slacking around and start doing something before I reach a point of no return.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
My first million coming right up!
This year's draw has a grand prize of 10mil. We have been talking among ourselves and dreaming of the things we would do if any of us win. For a small price, a big hope and days of countless good daydreams...it's all well worth it.
Location:Harbour Front Walk,,Singapore
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
The earliest of days
The sky is only beginning to light up. 7am, a rather windy morning. The street lights are still on.
Everything around me feels particularly new today. Mainly because I have never got out of the house this early before.
Now that I'm finally back to my work world. Everything else seems to have fallen into place again. Like blocks of puzzle cubes falling into it's mold. Familiar, yet dreary.
The lunar new year came and is now almost gone. The weather here seems to more cooling than back home. At times I try to convince myself it isn't true. I mean I can't be at two places at a time, how am I so sure that the weather didn't turn cooler right after I left. I could have probably asked someone or check the weather report but I guess certain things can remain as a ? sometimes, just to keep life a lil flavorful.
Everything around me feels particularly new today. Mainly because I have never got out of the house this early before.
Now that I'm finally back to my work world. Everything else seems to have fallen into place again. Like blocks of puzzle cubes falling into it's mold. Familiar, yet dreary.
The lunar new year came and is now almost gone. The weather here seems to more cooling than back home. At times I try to convince myself it isn't true. I mean I can't be at two places at a time, how am I so sure that the weather didn't turn cooler right after I left. I could have probably asked someone or check the weather report but I guess certain things can remain as a ? sometimes, just to keep life a lil flavorful.
Location:Pasir Ris Drive 12,,Singapore
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
After the rain
The rain has finally stopped. The floor everywhere is still wet, plenty puddles of water. Some had turned murky due to the heavy and continuous rain. It's gonna take a few more days of shine to clear. The sun is finally visible today. Though the rays are still weak and the grey clouds still seems rather thick in the open sky, I think we'll probably see a few more warm days ahead.
Tonight I'll be leaving for home...for the new year.
Tonight I'll be leaving for home...for the new year.
Location:Sengkang Square,,Singapore
Monday, January 31, 2011
The long rain
It's Jan 31st. The last day of the very first month of the new year. Somehow I have a feeling this year is gonna breeze thru like all the other years.
It's been raining for the past 2 days now. Continuously. 9am with a 730 sky. I'll be very late again. I've spent my weekend hiding mostly in my room. Wowing the rainy days away, only braving the rain to get food supplies. Never been any other places and never really spoken to anyone. Except a few friendly words exchange with my landlord. I'm just thinking this long rain might have been a sign. A sign that tells me to lay back and take it slow while I wait for my turn to go home.
In a city that rains, will I get any shine day before I leave? I'll be praying for a more dryer ground back home.
- Posted from my iPhone
It's been raining for the past 2 days now. Continuously. 9am with a 730 sky. I'll be very late again. I've spent my weekend hiding mostly in my room. Wowing the rainy days away, only braving the rain to get food supplies. Never been any other places and never really spoken to anyone. Except a few friendly words exchange with my landlord. I'm just thinking this long rain might have been a sign. A sign that tells me to lay back and take it slow while I wait for my turn to go home.
In a city that rains, will I get any shine day before I leave? I'll be praying for a more dryer ground back home.
- Posted from my iPhone
Location:Singapore,Singapore
Thursday, January 27, 2011
One week more
It's approximately one week to CNY. Today my flu seems to have cleared quite a fair bit. So does the sky. I'm hoping both stays this way. Most of the people I know will be leaving by tomorrow. Me, I have to wait till next Tuesday evening. Something I have given up for a longer post break. The mood is slowly creeping in. I've changed my phone's wallpaper to be in the season. I guess that helps.
Location:Edinburgh Rd,Singapore,Singapore
Monday, January 24, 2011
Dreams dreams and more dreams
I woke this morning feeling somewhat refreshed. Perhaps it's the flu med that I took last nite. Though right now I'm still suffering a little from the headache that I got after the evening nap. Occasionally the left side of my forehead will still pulsate a small wave of pain which passes off pretty quickly.
It's almost a week to CNY. I'm just hoping the past 3 weeks of occasional staying past 8, 9, 10pm would help ease the workload a lil with my 2 weeks absence.
Today I got out from the house at 8am. Something which I haven't been able to do for some time now. I got my 4 slices of gardenia with planta which I plan to eat with a cup of old town that I bought just last week. Hoping my attempt to a healthier life would last more than just one day.
Edit: and I forgot to mention the dreams...yes, the dreams that never seem to cease. Almost everytime I fall asleep. I woke up remembering some of it and most of it being random. Some people say they sleep without a dream and they can go on for years. Could it be my mind's too engaged with all sorts of things? The game that I play, the people and happenings around me, the work? In my current mental state I'd deny everything. At least I don't think anything would have bothered me much. Or perhaps I should seek professional help.
- Posted from my iPhone
Location:Jalan Tanjong,,Singapore
Sunday, January 16, 2011
A girl call Indian
I just had the most strangest dream ever. A dream which seems so real, i'm almost certain i never had before.
I met this girl while running back to the beach, there was some sort of a big wave coming and everyone was running back from the sea. That's how we met, she was running beside me or had someone pulling her while she stood in a box (yah this part is rather weird).
When we reached the shore, our eyes met, we smiled and for some reason we began talking. And almost immediately I felt some kind of chemistry. We walked back to the locker place to get our bags, hers was about 2-3 lockers away from mine but shockingly we found most of our items and bags gone. The locker thief left my white long sleeve shirt and a few items in the locker but my bag, my wallet are gone. Speaking to the security guard at the counter, which ironically was just beside the locker stretch, we were informed that they know who the thief is. It happens all the time and the same person will come stealing everybody's stuff from the locker but the security guard told us not to worry and they can almost gurantee our stuff back. The next moment, when we looked back our bags have magically appear in the locker, beside the lockers stood another security guy who was talking about chasing the thief and bringing all the stuff back and putting it back into our lockers. Surprised, yet relief we checked our belongings to make sure there is no missing piece. While i began to pack my things, i realize i have alot of mochi in my bags...boxes and boxex of them. I couldn't recall how i got them, i must have bought them during my office charity sale event earlier that day i thought. Mochi of different colors, green, red, white etc. Though i kinda like mochi but this is rather extreme. I offered her some but she declined saying she dont fancy them somewhat. I felt a small jab, a first incompatibility. But nevertheless not a big issue.
I dont remember what happen after, the next thing i recall is we are at some office place...her work. Coincidentally my office is nearby (and this is not where i am working now!), i have no idea where is that place but i am 'suppose' to work there. I went over to her place and she said we should try meet again (ok, so this is still the first time we met...but it doesnt seem to connect to the earlier part...but hey...u can't try to logic a dream). We wanted to exchange our name cards but as i was digging my bag, she walked back to her office...it was an open space one at the ground floor and you can see it from the opposite. When i walked over she was just done talking to her colleague and I told her i had to go, its getting late. So she gave me her namecard and ask me to call her sometime. Before i had the chance to look at the namecard, i saw her cubicle label, "Indian". When i looked up at her, she said her name is Indian. And no, she is not indian but her ex was. And she laughed saying it was a joke. I find it rather refreshing. How often do you hear a name like that. She asked me how i'd like to be called. I told her to call me Jo. Short for Joseph. Her male colleague walked over when he heard my introduction and began talking to us. After a short conversation, he seem to mumble something dry and walked over into the main road direction. As if possessed. I flashed her a weird look and she told me not to worry, it happens to the guy all the time. She told me next, she would drive home shortly. I looked at her again, she is fair, rather short hair and have a faint make up on her. A rather greenish eye liner. I told her I'd take a cab. As i walk to the main road trying to grab a cab, it felt like 2am at that time but surprisingly there are still quite a number of vehicles on the street. She walked on with me. Asking if it is ok or possible that i could get a cab. I told her at that hour, it shouldn't be too difficult. I should be able to get one when we reach the main road. I do that all the time. When i said that it all just seems so natural, like as if i really did it all the time despite the fact that i never even been there before... but of course, i didnt come to the conclusion until i wake up. When we reach the intersection, I woke up. For no reason, i just woke up and almost immediately, i realize everything was just a dream. This girl never existed in my life. It was all just a dream. Disappointment. I sighed and looked at the clock beside me, its almost 1040am. I have had a late nite, going to bed at 5. I counted, I have only slept for 5 hours. Silently cursing thinking why i would wake up only after 5 hours of sleep and i'm gonna feel like crap the whole day. Now, as i'm typing these lines for so long...i realized, we have 12 hours. But as i count again, what does that even mean. I still have slept for only 5 hours. Damnn...i must have not been fully awake yet. I am just trying to write all these things down while i still remember. Perhaps someday i might actually met someone call Indian and that she is someone exactly like how i dreamt her to be. I can only wish. I'd best try to get a few more wink, perhaps the dream will continue...
I met this girl while running back to the beach, there was some sort of a big wave coming and everyone was running back from the sea. That's how we met, she was running beside me or had someone pulling her while she stood in a box (yah this part is rather weird).
When we reached the shore, our eyes met, we smiled and for some reason we began talking. And almost immediately I felt some kind of chemistry. We walked back to the locker place to get our bags, hers was about 2-3 lockers away from mine but shockingly we found most of our items and bags gone. The locker thief left my white long sleeve shirt and a few items in the locker but my bag, my wallet are gone. Speaking to the security guard at the counter, which ironically was just beside the locker stretch, we were informed that they know who the thief is. It happens all the time and the same person will come stealing everybody's stuff from the locker but the security guard told us not to worry and they can almost gurantee our stuff back. The next moment, when we looked back our bags have magically appear in the locker, beside the lockers stood another security guy who was talking about chasing the thief and bringing all the stuff back and putting it back into our lockers. Surprised, yet relief we checked our belongings to make sure there is no missing piece. While i began to pack my things, i realize i have alot of mochi in my bags...boxes and boxex of them. I couldn't recall how i got them, i must have bought them during my office charity sale event earlier that day i thought. Mochi of different colors, green, red, white etc. Though i kinda like mochi but this is rather extreme. I offered her some but she declined saying she dont fancy them somewhat. I felt a small jab, a first incompatibility. But nevertheless not a big issue.
I dont remember what happen after, the next thing i recall is we are at some office place...her work. Coincidentally my office is nearby (and this is not where i am working now!), i have no idea where is that place but i am 'suppose' to work there. I went over to her place and she said we should try meet again (ok, so this is still the first time we met...but it doesnt seem to connect to the earlier part...but hey...u can't try to logic a dream). We wanted to exchange our name cards but as i was digging my bag, she walked back to her office...it was an open space one at the ground floor and you can see it from the opposite. When i walked over she was just done talking to her colleague and I told her i had to go, its getting late. So she gave me her namecard and ask me to call her sometime. Before i had the chance to look at the namecard, i saw her cubicle label, "Indian". When i looked up at her, she said her name is Indian. And no, she is not indian but her ex was. And she laughed saying it was a joke. I find it rather refreshing. How often do you hear a name like that. She asked me how i'd like to be called. I told her to call me Jo. Short for Joseph. Her male colleague walked over when he heard my introduction and began talking to us. After a short conversation, he seem to mumble something dry and walked over into the main road direction. As if possessed. I flashed her a weird look and she told me not to worry, it happens to the guy all the time. She told me next, she would drive home shortly. I looked at her again, she is fair, rather short hair and have a faint make up on her. A rather greenish eye liner. I told her I'd take a cab. As i walk to the main road trying to grab a cab, it felt like 2am at that time but surprisingly there are still quite a number of vehicles on the street. She walked on with me. Asking if it is ok or possible that i could get a cab. I told her at that hour, it shouldn't be too difficult. I should be able to get one when we reach the main road. I do that all the time. When i said that it all just seems so natural, like as if i really did it all the time despite the fact that i never even been there before... but of course, i didnt come to the conclusion until i wake up. When we reach the intersection, I woke up. For no reason, i just woke up and almost immediately, i realize everything was just a dream. This girl never existed in my life. It was all just a dream. Disappointment. I sighed and looked at the clock beside me, its almost 1040am. I have had a late nite, going to bed at 5. I counted, I have only slept for 5 hours. Silently cursing thinking why i would wake up only after 5 hours of sleep and i'm gonna feel like crap the whole day. Now, as i'm typing these lines for so long...i realized, we have 12 hours. But as i count again, what does that even mean. I still have slept for only 5 hours. Damnn...i must have not been fully awake yet. I am just trying to write all these things down while i still remember. Perhaps someday i might actually met someone call Indian and that she is someone exactly like how i dreamt her to be. I can only wish. I'd best try to get a few more wink, perhaps the dream will continue...
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Océans
Ce soir, j'ai regarder une film titre Océans à l'alliance francaise.
Il est une documentaire en francais. Il est tres interessant et bon.
Je ne vas pas la class ce soir. Je suis très fatigué.
http://www.time.com/time/arts/article/0,8599,1957939,00.html
Il est une documentaire en francais. Il est tres interessant et bon.
Je ne vas pas la class ce soir. Je suis très fatigué.
http://www.time.com/time/arts/article/0,8599,1957939,00.html
Monday, January 10, 2011
One rainy night
It's almost 930pm, a rainy Monday night. I am still on my way back. It's been a week...I'm feeling rather lethargic but good at the same time. Close to 10 months in the company, I hardly have to work past 8. It's like I'm finally showing them I'm worth my slack. Rather silly, but I guess that's why I feel good.
Two weeks ago, on a rather good weathered evening. I went cycling. It was a really breezy day, the sun's rays were weak and clouds were thick. I had the most quiet and peaceful time i've had in a while.
Two weeks ago, on a rather good weathered evening. I went cycling. It was a really breezy day, the sun's rays were weak and clouds were thick. I had the most quiet and peaceful time i've had in a while.
Friday, January 07, 2011
An app-y new year
Wheeee. Been wanting to get an app that could let me write as and when and even where. Found this this today and I think most likely I would be able to post more often than ever.
Its been my 2nd or 3rd quietly celebrated year now. I gotta admit I'm feeling old from within...ditching party nites for much more quiet coffee/beer sessions with closer friends. The feeling was a lot more lighter. And I like it this way.
With the Xmas and new year day gone. Comes another cycle of the Chinese new year. I've grown a lil weary with all these hooo hah times. Overly crowded streets. Never-ending visits of friends and relatives. Sometimes I just wish I could hide in my lil room a while longer...
- Posted from my iPhone
Its been my 2nd or 3rd quietly celebrated year now. I gotta admit I'm feeling old from within...ditching party nites for much more quiet coffee/beer sessions with closer friends. The feeling was a lot more lighter. And I like it this way.
With the Xmas and new year day gone. Comes another cycle of the Chinese new year. I've grown a lil weary with all these hooo hah times. Overly crowded streets. Never-ending visits of friends and relatives. Sometimes I just wish I could hide in my lil room a while longer...
- Posted from my iPhone
Location:Harbour Front Walk,,Singapore
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