Somewhere in between

It's Wednesday. Mid of the week always seem the longest. The dreadful feeling of having to endure another 3 days till the weekend, the joy of already completed half of the weekdays; its a mixed bag of feeling. Confused yet happy. Uncertain yet full of anticipation. 

I woke up this morning feeling a lil lethargic. I have not get my well deserved rest lately. I wouldn't say its work again. The fact that i have so easily blamed everything on my past job makes me wanna do it again. But even this time i couldnt bring myself to such a lie. I have gotten active on WoW again, and with life kicking in at its never-seen-before force; Wing Chun on Mondays, French on Tuesdays, Gym on Wednesdays and Fridays; i barely have enough time for anything else. And if i pack my weekends with outings, movies and casual dinings; I can be pretty sure the following week, i would have accumulated another bag of puff under my eyes and a set of heavier bones to be dragged across the next week. The tardiness would be doubled by then. I need to work out a balance.

Sel has been gone for more than 2months now, talking to her recently, listening to her new developments and recent changes in life. At times, i admire her courage, her spirit and her determination. Having the guts to throw everything that you ever owned and cared, flew across the pacific; braving the foreign weather looking for a new shelter. One which even for my standard, find hard to achieve. I dont think i would ever whip out such courage. Although the idea would seem tempting at times but certain things would always be just a good-to-have thought. One which perhaps one day when you wake up from your bed and you have a feeling so strong, it suddenly becomes something achievable. But until that day, I'll lock that thought at the back of my head.