On this day

...my first step into the thirties begins. I guess the first obvious thing about growing older is the change in oneself. Something apparent. MORE Signs of greying hair, veiny hands and fingers, dehydration: lips/skin...felt like i'm wearing a permanent suit made from old tree bark and perhaps also occasional volcanic emotional bursts. Hmmm...sounded like it's some crazy nightmare comes true. Anyhow...moving on...

tis the day to be jolly. At least, on the bright side...i'm not at work and the weather's good for a start. There's finally some moving air. A small gust of wind was just blowing into my room earlier on when i throw open the window for some sunlight.

I didnt get to bed till 4 this morning. Part of me just dont feel like sleeping the night away. I got up at 10. Thanks to my mom calling. And i have been surfing, downloading podcasts and watching videos since. Its close to 1pm now, and i'm due to meet up with a friend for lunch. Celebrating both our big day on the same day. Gonna head out to Orchard for lunch...and to spend some cash.

Along the crooked line

Haven't been writing much of late, at times when i did...the posts never get posted. Most of them are still sitting in my draft and some i might have discarded them without a second thought. Too much have been going on lately. My mind wasn't as focused anymore. Not that it was much before, but i'm just trying to say that...things have gotten a lil bit unbalanced. Too much work, too much game...to little time left to think...to visualize. Haha...i guess that makes writing even harder.

Anyway, after my Friday break and the undisturbed weekend. I'm feeling alot better. A walk outside and dinner with some friends helped. And picking something nice to read helps too. Was browsing at the bookstore today in the terminal and picked up something nice. Something...different than my usual read. All this while, whenever i lose my cool on things, reading sorta help calm things down a lil. They say Tuesdays with Morris is an inspiration. I have not started flipping yet. It got my friend who doesnt read much hooked for an hour or more, i guess whatever they say might be true after all.

The one that got fried

I'll be out of wow and pretty much everything for the next week or so. Laptop's at service center. Same issue with my old one - mainboard's fried. Only this time, I'm slightly on the better side of luck, it's still under warranty. My last one had to sit in the corner of my room for the past 2 years till i sold it off to a junk shop for a mere 200RM recently. It's either laptops these days dont last that long, or it's probably just me and my heavy usage. Gonna dump 99$ into my 3rd year warranty after this. My best buddy for the coming weekend would be my long-abandoned psp, which i've recently spent 20$ getting it 'fixed' to allow unlimited 'gameplay'. Ohhh also my first 3 episodes of Friends on my iPhone. Gotta have to 'manage' them wisely. :)

It's all in the books

As the world spirals into a chaotic twist of financial turmoil...the people fumbles upon their feet as they scratch on the floor, digging through dirt for a hope to strike gold. In any given institution, this is the time when you need to justify your very own existence. Resources have been thin, budgets were slashed. People in need to find reasons to keep them at their desks. At this time, courtesy will not put food on your table.

Lately, a pattern is beginning to emerge...it's either you don't do or you do it with a price. I observed a few, in their desperate move to secure a deal...even for a simple request which would take half day at most; they would lashed out to their requester with a knife and ask them to pay for that small effort.
Though some of them may not deserve the sympathy, there are truly some that are helpless beyond measure. Their departments have been sucked dry, they are out funds and they are now begging at your doorsteps, hoping that you would do them a small favor. Yet, the plea goes unanswered.

As i sink myself into the situation, I'm preparing for the many more wonderful episodes to come...this is gonna be a long season.

Lonely On Valentine's Eve

I've been trying to lay low for the occasion. Being 'single' on such a day isn't something that you would wanna blared about. The more subtle it is, the better. Anyhow, it is just a day. And it's even better if it's on the weekend, you can just pretend that you have never existed at all. Hide away from the world and you can live through another day without having to face the cruel fact that you are actually...less than a couple.

...or at least, that would be ideal thing to do. But life is not always ideal...

It is work again that pulled me out from my hiding. I'd rather be caught hanging out with my bachelor friends on this day, than to be seen walking around in office. Though those that get to see me in office probably aren't in any better situation either...still, it doesn't feel that right.

I never really talked much about work on here before...only until this particular one. My last few posts have been all about it.
Like the ad says Your Calling is Calling , i think i can hear mine already.
Happy Valentine's.

The Story of Ah BAN

Once there was a man named Ah Ban. He was a simple-minded, happy-go-lucky guy. Never having to worry about his life. His day job was simple. Starts at 9. Ends at 6 or 7 every evening. During the day, he just perform whatever that he was told. From 1 to 10, A to Z...all will be detailed down for him to the last tiny bit of instruction. With his single-minded nature, he would not be able to spot a missing step or if the instruction was indeed correct. He follows a simple life philosophy - if the instruction is wrong, so will be the outcome.

Days went by, and Ah Ban at times would grow frustrated over his small existance at his work place. He would throw some short tantrums and continues doing nothing. Or refuse to accept any work being assigned to him. But usually by the next day, he'll turn out to be ok again. And that went on for 3 long years. People around him have either gave up on him or just use him for running some simple errands that would require anybody with a good pair of arms and legs. He might be simple, but he ain't stupid. He knows...but he couldn't care less either.

Today, he finally digged up some courage. He told the world that he is going to leave. A new ship is willing to take him on board and he's determined to set off to a new land with a new start. Let's hope he would end up being a captain someday and not sweeping the deck again.

Judgements

For one, i've heard alot of stories about how 'female'(even if you're a female) someone can be if you have the slightest intention to watch the recent Sex and the City show. I was abit skeptical at first. One fine day, i found it on someone's harddisk and thought i'd quietly copy that out and watch them during one of my 'quiet' nites and never tell a soul. Turns out...this show, if you are able to look deeper...below all the shinies, you'll find a really good storyline. Story about friends and love and all the things that's happening in our real, daily life. I'm gonna have to learn to be more ignorant & less typical. A new year's resolution, if its not already too late.

Next, i have an old friend which i've known for years. Recently, maybe due to the changes in one's life. Character may become...mmmm...annoying. Babbling away everyday and night about the stuff one's wanting to do. I was trying to be supportive mostly, but i ran out of fuel after 2-3weeks. When the same thing happen couple of days ago, i was really at lost of words. I dont feel like repeating myself anymore. I'm just tired. I felt like an awful friend. Times like this, i should have put in more effort and be more considerate. But i dont want to be pretentious at the same time. What could be worse than faking in front of your old friend? Perhaps, i should make it a point to learn...how to deal with such situation, gracefully.

On third, well...its finally some happy news...i'm goin back home tonight...wooohooooooooooooo! Something which i have been waiting for, for a while. Hopefully with the new year and all the earthly good things to come...i'll feel alot different when i get back to work in Feb.

till the next lunar year...adios.