Turning on a new 'live'

Recently, there has been quite a lot of changes when I get back to Singapore. I had to find my own place to stay now. And though I know from the very beginning that this day would come, somehow...it is still not so easy to adept or even accept. I guess I cant help but to feel a lil depressed and lost. Lucky for me, a friend had a place to rent out, so I jump on the chance. Though I'm now settled in the new place, it's somehow...different...the feeling i'm getting is still a lil awkward and...hmmm...perhaps this is the first time ever i'm moving out on my own...renting a place with a friend. The last time when I was in Jakarta, things were different. I dont get this sort of feeling. I hope it'll pass soon.

I have to work from 11 to 8 now. Sort of trying to support my european colleagues over what I've been doing for the past 3 months there. Sighs...why do i get so easily depressed lately? Hmm...I need a break I guess. Somehow, I think I'm losing myself.

It was raining almost the whole of today, my day and mind are both clouded. Grey and gloomy. As I walked to the mall opposite where I'm staying now...while waiting for the lights to change...I cant help but to think...Everyday seems to be a routine that I live out just for the sake getting through it. I don't know what I'm feeling or want in life anymore. At least for now, I don't. Perhaps I'm saying all these because I'm not in the right mood...if that's the case...I would be glad, for it will usually be gone sooner than I think, or if I'm wrong...I would be stuck with this emotional self of mine for quite some time...Hopefully tomorrow when I wake up, I'll feel different.